Can anybody explain this to me?

So my boyfriend has started working in a strip club as a bouncer and was just offered the position of istant manager. I was so totally insecure and jealous I felt like it was ruining our relationship. I didn't want him to be around naked women all day and I certainly didn't want him forming any kind of relationship with these girls. I wanted to be the only one he looks at and has attraction to. I'm 21 and had never even been in a strip club, sure I was not naive to the world of vice and considered myself a pretty ual person but the only real thoughts I had to go on were of what I had seen or heard about strip clubs which made me feel like he was definitly cheating on me. So I told him he had to take me there so I could see for myself how it was and how he interacted with the strippers. Suprisingly he agreed, and I have to say it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. His bosses thought I was absolutely gorgeous and joked about me being out of his league which boosted my self esteem like crazy because these men have seen all types of beautiful women and they actually thought of me as gorgeous . I watched the girl on stage as she absolutely captured my attention. Yes she was beautiful and had a good body but at that moment I realized that she was nothing more than a visual effect. There was no romantic or ual relationships with these girls, just appriciation for a nice body. I had never felt more respected by anyone before, I felt like I was treated VIP and put in a higher cl than these women. So his boss let me take him into a friction room and "break him in on my own". Just a lap dance, and no nuditity but I loved it, it made me feel like an absolute different women. I had opened my eyes to my true ual desires and am so infatuated with him now. I have such a crush on him again, by the way we have been together 5 years, and our love life is just so amazing now. How did this happen? how did I just go from one extreme of insecrurity and jealousy to being so into him and trusting that he only wants me?